Today I have put together my new doll (except the head, it still need some paint) and I have realised how much I hate my doll. It's ugly, glumsy, not delicate at all, it does not work properly, I am not able to make any detail perfectly and the knees are never going to work!! Today I feel like s*it and I wonder if I should just stop even trying. Why do I even bother? I can never be good as those dolls I really love for their posing skills and delicacy. . Sorry, this is just one of those days when I wonder why I try. Gosh I hate my doll. It sucks. I was thinking of redoing parts of the body -again. But then I am thinking why should I waste more and more of my time. It is never going to be good.
Contrary to what you think, I do think your doll looks great already! You have your own style - the face especially- and the body will evolve with time. Btw it took me five years to get something I really liked. So you can be proud of what you've achieved in so little time. The accessories and wigs you make also have their own styles. Hang in there and get back to work ;-)
Yes, you need to remember it takes a long time to learn a new skill!! Good artists always get good by practicing a lot. And practice means doing it wrong over and over!
That said, I agree, your dolls are impressive. Not everyone can see the flaws you must see as the artist. It is the same for my jewelry. I worked on a necklace for many months. By the end I hated it and all I could see was the flaws. But my girlfriend said she couldn't tell, so I swallowed my trepidation and sent it to the customer. Now it is my most popular item on etsy!!
Post by EarthShine Doll on Aug 29, 2016 19:27:13 GMT -8
Being on the artist end is so hard... Making dolls is freaking hard! You are amazingly talented. Look back on all that you have learned for the FIRST TIME. Look at all the different steps that you accomplished! And your dolls look great!! I think it takes time to hone your craft. Think of all the great famous doll artists you love...go back and look at THEIR first dolls. They are so different! Their styles changed and flowed, they realized what worked and what didn't. They kept creating and improving and got to perfection because of years of practice. <-----(These were my husbands words to me last week when I was crying and wanting to throw all my dolls out the window because I hated them. I know exactly how you feel. There must be an artist bug going around... ) He's right though. I think it's easy to get discouraged because, as an artist, you work so hard and pour your heart and soul and hours and hour and hours of your time into this doll and sometimes the outcome isn't what you expected for your effort. But you deserve to love your dolls and be proud of your hard work! Be kind to yourself and don't judge your progress to harshly. Your dolls ARE amazing! <3 <3 <3
I appreciate your uplifting comments with all my heart! And thank you for letting me know that I am not the only one wanting to throw my creations to the wall at times ! Maybe there really is some "You-totally-suck"-flu going around...and my depression does not help much . Maybe I just should be with our new kitty for couple of days -or weeks- and forget about the stupid dolls! Thank You all for helping me on my very bad day/week <3 (And how on earth do I get the springing tight enough? The knee part always stays too floppy . Why can´t I be as talented as Popovy sisters? Everything they do is amazing; the dolls, the clothes, the shoes, the wigs... Ok, need to get our kitty in my arms NOW! )
Caracal, I was sad to read about you being so hard on yourself. I wish you could see yourself how you really are....extremely talented!! I always admire your creations....your dolls, face-ups, clothing & accessories are always amazing. And it's worth remembering also, that the Popovy Sisters are two, not one, helping, supporting and inspiring each other. :-)
Oh my, I just realized that I haven't posted any wip photos of my wolf girl here. But if You are interested, there are some photos on my flickr. Just love my wolf girl, finally I am doing "darker" dolls, I am quite a dark person inside. I still need to do one more thing for her and then I can show her to You, all ready for critisism.
Caracal, she is wonderful. I know your passion about wolves and the cruelty towards these wonderful animals, so i can see where this doll came from. Love the concept behind her creation. Can't wait to see your other characters.
Last Edit: Sept 10, 2016 7:27:46 GMT -8 by ivdolls
Thank You Kamia and Bibarina. And thank You Ivdolls for understanding the meaning of her <3.I shall write more about her later when I am able to take better photos of her. So now my Wolf lady is ready and this is the first photo of her. (I need to get better backdrop, white is not working).
She has sterling silver chains with garned beads and sterling silver headdress. She has dark red sueding for a reason, as the garnet beads; they represent blood. There is a full text in the flickr about my thoughts on this wolf issue. But put to short; I do not understand why we humans hate and are so afraid of wolves so much and want to murder them everywhere in the world. Wolves are extremely important to the ecosystem in earth and we have no right to wipe them out of this planet just because we want to.